A career in publishing is something that I dream about and have done since I started my English degree at university. Since then, I completed it and got my 2:1 then went back and got a Merit for my MA in English. I wanted to continue exploring books that I love in great detail. I wasn't ready to close the door on reading books academically. Doing my BA and MA has given me an even greater appreciation for the written word. I love how clever so many novels are. I love seeing the hidden meanings in books, but most of all I love sharing this love with other book lovers. It's this sharing and this promotion that I long to do. There is nothing that I want more than to have a job as a Publicist. Nothing at all.
I graduated from my MA in September, so it's been a fair few months. I'm currently a library assistant at a college. It's great. It's a book-related job and I do enjoy it. There's just one problem. It isn't in publishing. I had never been an overly ambitious person prior to university, but since leaving I am willing to do anything and everything possible to get more experience in publishing. I have such a great ambition to get this career. I'm not willing to settle for less. It's my dream and I genuinely do feel that I'll be incomplete without getting a job in this business. It's the only thing I want. There are no other careers that interest me. Publicity is where my heart lies and I won't be content until I'm a part of it.
What has made me even more sure about this is my internship at Angry Robot Books. It was in that time that I picked up publicity, marketing and a little editorial experience. I loved it. I didn't want to leave. That internship was a dream come true and it solidified for me that Publicity was the job for me. Organising blog tours, ARCs, author events, interviews, maintaining websites, building relationships. I loved it. Every. Single. Second. Even packing up the ARCs. All of them. I was so sad to finish the internship but it's given me some invaluable experience within the industry. I can't thank the folks at Angry Robot enough.
Now here's the reason I'm feeling put out. I can't seem to get anywhere with the job applications. I've had my CV looked over by a Publicity Manager at Random House, made it better, have work experience and an internship yet still can't seem to get an interview. It makes me worry about what's wrong with me. Am I not employable? Do I not have that special thing that they're looking for? I know it's such a competitive business and that it hasn't been that long. Not in the great scheme of things. But it does get very saddening getting so many rejections. It starts to feel like my dream is unobtainable. I'm starting to save up money to apply for further work experience and internships. Anything that will give me that extra edge. My reason for starting the blog was sharing the love of books and to help me battle my way into publishing. I'm not going to stop now, but it definitely gets difficult.
Despite this, not once have I thought about giving up. I refuse to. This is my absolute dream. I cannot give up on this. I love books too much. Especially the Young Adult books. I would love nothing more than to be able to promote such books. I want to make this wonderful bookish community even bigger than it already is. All I ever do is talk about books and encourage people to read [insert book name here]. I want people to hear about these wonderful books, to experience them and to love them like I do. I want to help authors reach their dreams. I want to be someone that helps people get that same feeling that I had reading Harry Potter for the first time, but with a variety of books.
It can often feel impossible to get into this publishing world. I'll be over the moon to get an interview. I'll explode with happiness when I get into this world. I know its feels difficult now, but I know that it will pass. Things have to get better, even if it takes awhile. It will be worth it in the end.
How about you guys?
Do you ever feel like you're never going to get your dream job? Or get disheartened by the job application process?