Before I Go To Sleep - S. J. Watson
Memories define us.
So what if you lost yours every time you went to sleep?
Your name, your identity, your past, even the people you love - all forgotten overnight.
And the one person you trust may only be telling you half the story.
Welcome to Christine's life.
I felt incredibly torn throughout the entire novel. Do I trust Ben, her husband? How about Dr. Nash? Is he plotting something? We as readers are equally as lost with no memories of Christine's past to go on. Almost immediately we are given a curve ball, one single sentence which sticks with us throughout the book; DO NOT TRUST BEN. Why? Will we ever find out the answers to any of our questions? What makes this all the more chilling is that parts of Christine's amnesia are taken from real cases - things which unsettled me greatly. I cannot bare the thought of losing my memories.
Christine's case is incredibly rare with her being able to remember entire days but as soon as she falls asleep, everything erases and she awakens the next morning in yet another web of confusion. I truly sympathised with Christine. With so many things unveiled throughout, and her journal keeping her up to date on all of what she has discovered in the previous weeks, the readers are in as much turmoil as she is. Why does Ben keep lying to her? Does Dr. Nash have her best interests at heart? A really different book from what I usually read.
I have this book 3.5/5* as it unsettled me far too much to say that I 'enjoyed' it. I definitely recommend the book, I just think it was that little bit to real for me. It's written amazingly, and I began to question what on earth I would do if I lost my memory. I mean, it would be difficult as I wouldn't realise immediately, and that completely terrifies me. I recommend this book, definitely, although it won't be one I will be picking up again for a long time! Baby, I know, haha.